Hello everyone

(I was supposed to post this February 7th. That's why the date is all weird.)

Weight: 123

Sorry I haven't been posting lately. I've been really busy with work and firguring out this moving situation. I didn't make my goal for February 5th. I was 117. Sadly, now I'm back up to 123. So now my goal is going to be 115 by March 1st, then 110 by March 20th. That's more achievable.

So here's a picture I had taken 2 weeks ago. Excuse the ridiculous outfit. It was a rave. I was 117 at the time.
It's strange because I think I look skinnier in this picture than what I see in the mirror. But maybe that's how we all feel.








Well I hope you're all doing well. Stay strong! :)

1-28-10

Weight: 119.6

Intake: 2 cups of coffee (120 cal.)


Yesterday was good. I kept busy and only thought about eating a couple times. Thinking about eating when you're hungry is like thinking about vomiting when you're drunk: If you keep thinking about it you'll end up doing it. Does that make sense? Haha As long as you distract yourself and keep your mind on something else, you'll do well. But then again, distracting yourself isn't always easy which is why I think we mess up.

I don't think I'll have time to eat today either. I'm getting my hair done then going to work. Hopefully by the time I'm off work I'll have plans with friends.

Have a wonderful day ladies :) Stay strong!

Weight: 119.6

Sorry I haven't been updating these past 2 days. I've been too ashamed to talk about how much I've been eating. But I've been purging as well, so I guess that's helping. I'm finally out of the 120's again! Which means that maybe, just maybe, I might actually get down to 115 by next week. We'll see! Hope you're all doing well :) Stay strong!

Here's the plan.... 1-26-10

Weight: 123


Today was terrible... I'm over it. Tomorrow is a new day!

So right now my goal is to be 115 by February 5th. That gives me 9 days. I'm thinking I'll be lucky to get down to 118, but it's always worth a try.

My next goal is to be 110 by March 1st. This is actually a reasonable goal although I always have trouble getting down to 110. But I am going to reach this goal. I know it!

I also have some fantastic news to report: I'm moving out of my parents house! And out of state. My uncle has agreed to let me live with him free of rent. My sister might be moving with me as well. This means that losing weight will actually be possible. The temptation will practically disappear! My days will be filled with worrying about work and school instead of simply eating and watching tv. My uncle has a dog so I'll probably take her for walks everyday. I may even walk or ride a bike to work, we'll see. God, I'm so excited right now! Is it possible to be this happy and this fat?! Hah

I hope you're all doing well :) Stay strong!

Weight: 124

I didn't eat at all yesterday. The only calories I got were from coffee and beer. But today was a complete fail. Hopefully tomorrow will be better.

Let's never eat again

Let's all become unrealistically thin.
Let's prove them wrong.

I cracked... 2 bowls of ice cream and a nutri grain bar, followed by regret and a cigarette. That's usually what ends up happening. I get all fired up about getting skinny again, then I get bored, then I eat. I must avoid boredom at all costs.

How are you all doing?